Tuesday, March 9, 2010

my weight is up


UP
i knew it would be
I JUST KNEW IT i've been feeling so huge
but i did everything right
EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING
it doesn't make sense and I feel so utterly helpless

i wish i wish i hadn't weighed myself. now i don't know what to think or what to do. like it is completely out of my hands and it doesn't matter what i do my body will continue to just get infinitely bigger

maybe it's muscle mass, rehydration, constipation, some other physiological shift...
but it just FEELS LIKE FAT

FUCK

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8 comments:

  1. Mina BelleMarch 9, 2010 at 6:46 AM

    *hugs* that sucks hairy sweaty balls girl....

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  2. AnonymousMarch 9, 2010 at 7:16 AM

    Stop, and breathe, you are going to be fine.
    Don't weigh yourself for a little while.
    Numbers change everyday.
    Just keep going, because you know deep down you are doing the right thing.
    And sooner or later the scales will agree, but don't jepordise your progress now.
    It'll happen. Patience.

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  3. Phantasmagorical DelusionMarch 9, 2010 at 7:22 AM

    ^^^ Same boat. :( I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. At least you're doing everything right. I just feel like I've been *trying* to do everything right, but failing... Weighing feels like a mistake every time I do it now. Maybe try reducing your sodium intake? Natural way to get rid of some of that water, maybe. If you like prunes, those are great natural laxatives. I eat the cherry-flavored ones like candy. Except...they're not candy. Cuz candy's bad, ya know? ;)

    Much love your way, hun...
    P.D.

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  4. SeeMarch 9, 2010 at 7:36 AM

    Stay calm, it happens, eventually your body
    will get used to the non purging and the numbers will drop, lovely I do hope your alright, x.

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  5. AnonymousMarch 9, 2010 at 8:39 AM

    give it another week. Your body's still adjusting I'd say. Just accept it.

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  6. JessMarch 9, 2010 at 9:30 AM

    You're doing the right thing by not purging...stay strong...we are all here for you!

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  7. Medica ChaoticaMarch 9, 2010 at 3:10 PM

    Don´t worry about the weight.
    you are BP free for a week, that is awesome, I am so proud of you, the weight will follow. I know it, you know it deep down, just relax and go to the gym.

    Take good care.

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  8. AncoraMarch 9, 2010 at 6:53 PM

    WELL GUESS WHAT??!
    YOU DIDN'T PURGE SO YOU FARKEN ROCK MY SOCKS OFF.

    Don't let it get to you? Obviously that's a silly thing to say, but I'll say it anyway.
    But yeah. Deep calm breaths, there's no words I can say to you so I'll leave it to Lulu.

    lovelovelove<3

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