Saturday, March 13, 2010

the B bomb

more alcohol and more tears
and more phone calls to my mum
and more skirting around the real reason for so much misery

then, finally, for some reason it came out

mum I have bulimia

uttered out loud

she's on her way over now to get me. lives about 20 minutes away. won't take her long. i feel wretched and putrid and embarrassed and i hate myself. but this is a change. i don't want her to see me but soon she will. everything has changed now.


  1. maybe for the better. you're miserable in your bulimia.

    i hope everything gets better for you, darling. you deserve it.

  2. wow well done, that must have been so difficult for you. I know you feel wretched but maybe this will help. It is much easier not to do it when people are aware and know your triggers and can help you through it.

    Good luck, I hope things are on the up for you now and you get support from your mum x

  3. It's better this way, You won't have to face battling yourself alone. Good luck!

  4. I know how you feel. I've never been able to tell anyone about my bulimia, even the people I tell about all of my other flaws, for some reason that one is particularly hard for me to admit to.

    But this could be the start of something amazing - you escaping bulimia for good.

    I wish you well.

  5. What a cliffhanger! Pasco, luv, nows the time to come clean and share some of the weight that is on your shoulders. Your Mum will help you, that's what Mum's are for.

    Let it all out.

  6. sounds like you have a supportive mom, hope she helps you through this

    hugs to you

  7. Once I told someone and i had a bad day and stuffed my face and wanted to revert to my safety (purging) and i was soooo angry that i couldn't coz now people were on the look out. If you have that day, be strong and don't put yourself in that position.
    Hopefully its for good :)

  8. You are a braver soul than I. Update us whenever you can.

  9. .... I dunno what to say..... *HUGS*

  10. I hope everything will work out for you. You did not have a good time lately, and now there will be some changes, and maybe it will be hard, but in the end, you will shine.

    I wish you all the best.

  11. Wahhhh quick my gosh what happened. I hope youre' ok. I hope you don't decide to delete this blog. Cliff hanger indeed.


  12. You're very brave for being honest.
    Stay free.