Sunday, April 19, 2009


Boy and I broke up yesterday after bang on 3 years
That's quite a long time
My whole 20s thus far

Feels so weird
Smiley and relieving at first because it's been a long time coming and I feel sort of free
But scary as hell
Can't remember what it's like to be alone

Thank christ I started losing weight BEFORE it ended so I didn't wind up fat and stranded... beached... but as I said it's been coming on for a while. Maybe that's part of the reason I started this. Maybe.

Still, more to lose and nobody now to stop me

I really want to make myself over... I need more than ever now to become excruciatingly beautiful. I just wish there was something more I could do. Something extreme and fast and exciting. But really there's just slow, painstaking starvation.


  1. Don't think about it as being alone...think about it as a blessing and how much fun you're going to have getting attention from the opposite sex and flirting w/ them b/c you look so great! It will be fun and you'll be glad you're single!

  2. Happy for you!!!

  3. Freedom is wonderful! I'm happy for you. I hope that being alone will be exactly what you need. Remember that you can make it whatever you want it to be. You're in control completely now. I almost wish I were single so I could be too.

    Thank you so so much for the recent super supportive comments. You're so great. <3!

    Also, I'm glad to hear that you did a saltwater flush with just table salt. I really want to do one tonight since I'm alone, but I only have table salt. I've heard it's bad, but if it's still effective, then I think I'll give it a whirl. I've been chicken about this waaaay too long.

    You should definitely treat yourself to some new clothes/makeup/jewelry/manecure. After a break up, you totally deserve to feel beautiful.

    <3 Eva

  4. Awwww you girls! x a million times <3