Wednesday, April 22, 2009

56.3kg (123.9lbs)

So that's good!
Down 1.9kg (4.2lbs) from the same time last week which is better than I even hoped.

When I looked in the mirror this morning for a fleeting moment I got a glimpse of how much weight I've lost, and for a second saw what other people have been seeing. I actually looked thin, my legs looked a lot smaller, I thought I saw a hint of an abdominal muscle, ribs, spindly arms. Like the super-critical eye was softened by the shock of my loss on the scales.

But it came back pretty fast.

If you stand naked in front of the mirror and grab your bum and thighs from the back, then pull them back, it's like looking at yourself after losing a few more kgs. And it looks better.

Last night I took a cupcake and a cup of green tea into the shower with me. I sat under the water. chewing and spitting my semi-soggy cupcake down the drain, intermittently cleaning out my mouth with the water from the shower and drinking my tea. The tea made me feel full, as though i was actually eating the cupcake. The whole time I was doing it I thought, jesus, Pasco you really are a fucking crazy person.

What an odd post.

I'm so fucking late for uni.

Love you kids all to bits xxx


  1. OMG
    thats so strange!
    i chew & spit in the shower too, its a really frequent habit of mine and i often take drinks into the shower with me too.

    XOXO Sophia Ruins <3

  2. Doing better than you hoped is an excellent feat indeed!!! I'm glad that you could see the weight loss, even if it was just for a moment. All my affection!

  3. What you wrote on my last post is so true! I hate it when people say Im getting too tiny just because they're not used to me being so small. It is not fair at all. We deserve to be skinny too..

    It feels great to get even a glimpse of how much you've actually lost. To me it usually happens when Im watching older pictures or something.

    Keep going girl, -1.9 kg well done

    Love, Maria