56.3kg (123.9lbs)

So that's good!
Down 1.9kg (4.2lbs) from the same time last week which is better than I even hoped.

When I looked in the mirror this morning for a fleeting moment I got a glimpse of how much weight I've lost, and for a second saw what other people have been seeing. I actually looked thin, my legs looked a lot smaller, I thought I saw a hint of an abdominal muscle, ribs, spindly arms. Like the super-critical eye was softened by the shock of my loss on the scales.

But it came back pretty fast.

If you stand naked in front of the mirror and grab your bum and thighs from the back, then pull them back, it's like looking at yourself after losing a few more kgs. And it looks better.

Last night I took a cupcake and a cup of green tea into the shower with me. I sat under the water. chewing and spitting my semi-soggy cupcake down the drain, intermittently cleaning out my mouth with the water from the shower and drinking my tea. The tea made me feel full, as though i was actually eating the cupcake. The whole time I was doing it I thought, jesus, Pasco you really are a fucking crazy person.

What an odd post.

I'm so fucking late for uni.

Love you kids all to bits xxx