Thursday, April 9, 2009
So in the last 2-3 months I've lost at least 10kg (22 lbs), a lot of which has been in the last few weeks.
As I don't see my friends or family that often, every time I do see them they comment on my weight, which feels good, but is very tricky because you have to put on the whole nonchalant "not really trying/thinking about it, just busy" act.
But my boyfriend, who I see regularly, says nothing.
I reject food around him constantly. Nothing.
He eats pizza for dinner, I'll have celery. Nothing.
I'll go to the gym for 2 hours. Nothing
In bed his hand glides over my protruding hip bones. Nothing.
Nothing. Nothing. Nothing.
I think perhaps he approves. He's too stupid to see the extent of what I'm doing. Sometimes I hate him so much.
All you other girls have problems with loved ones being overly concerned or pressuring you to eat. I feel I have the opposite problem. I'm STARVING MYSELF and all I get is unstated approval or am just not noticed at all.