oooh

I overate and I want to throw up. It wasn't a binge, but it was more than I wanted. I could throw up easily. I would feel better. I wouldn't need to cram myself full of junk food first... I don't need to binge. Just quickly get rid of what's in me now. Nobody is home. It would be easy. All to easy.

But I know... once I let myself do it once, I open the floodgates. I'm trying trying trying to justify it... I know it is not a good idea. But I just hate feeling so full... and I know I could be empty again in a matter of moments...