Saturday, January 2, 2010

New Rule:

Family Dinner.

Day 2 and the depression is swamping me already. I just can't starve without my brain dissolving in despair. I can see it and rationalise and try to calm myself down, but I can't stop feeling terrible. I'm at my parents' place now and I've used up all my daily calories, but my dad is making dinner and I feel too lonely to leave and go home to avoid it. So the new rule, "family dinner", means that if I am with my family and it happens to be dinner time, I can add an extra max 500 calories to the day to allow for it. These days will be limited to 2 max per week.

More contingency plans!


  1. I agree that this is a good idea but feel wholly unqualified to give eating advice right now. family time does seem like something that should take precedence, especially if you don't live at home...

    cheer up!

    xoxo Ginger

  2. yeah, the only time I ever get to see my family is during their meal time. Im going to be bold and say that fasting isnt more important than my relationship with my mom. I love and miss her.

  3. Oooo. What a good plan :)
    I might borrow that. There is at least one day I week I can't avoid family eating.
    Cheer up petal :) *hug*

  4. So sad, it's like you are a prisoner in your own body. I can only imagine what that feels like.

  5. You may have to add calories but it's okay. Really it is. You will be okay.
    As for the depression, I know how you feel. When you are with your family it helps just a little bit but you die a little bit more inside each time. If you need someone to talk to I'm here for you love, and so are so many other people on here who support you.
    Take care love.

  6. "Contingency Plan" I love it! Haha =)


  7. I forget, are you a pro-Doctor yet?