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About Me
- Pasco
- I just want to shrink away, become diminutive and beautiful. Wispy. Fragile. That mysterious drifting girl, all limbs and tangled hair, meandering in fields of flowers. Amazing.
Height: 167cm (5'6")
HW: 75kg (165lbs) BMI: 26.9
SW: 62kg (136.5lbs) BMI: 22.2
LW: 51kg (112lbs) BMI 18.3
I hate this. I'm so mad that we live day by day over something that should be so effortless. Something that people just do without thinking.
ReplyDeleteI'm trying to get dressed and everything I put on makes me feel huge. I just want to crawl in bed with a bag of french fries and die.
I love you.
I have been reading your blog about two months now and I know what you feel. Difference is that I don't throw up, usually, I am a laxative junkie, and I know how difficult it is to say no. And the feeling when you eat and console and justify yourself that you get rid of it as soon as possible.
ReplyDeleteSo, you gave up, but you will rise again, right!? I could say tomorrow will be better, but we don't know it, so let's make the next minute and hour better. Don't punish yourself.:)
All the best!
Whatever "it" is - sanity, self-control- you CAN get it back.
ReplyDelete3 more hours before Tuesday.
New day, fresh start?
*hugs*
pick yourself up and just try again.
ReplyDeleteits not going to be easy, so give yourself a little bit of a break.
as long as you keep trying and don't give up then you never really lose.
you WILL get through this!
xx all my love xx
I know how you are feeling. I am falling apart - each time I walk into a shop I have to chant myself not to eat minieggs or chocolate. I cant stop throwing it up and it is so yum. I try telling myself that the food wont make me happy, that ususally doesnt work, so all i can say is I am here for you whilst you lie fallen, and tell you now that you will rise again. I think you need one day where you dont to start it off. I wish I were more positive at the moment to help you out, but I wanted to let you know either way that I love you and am here picking you up in my head x
ReplyDeletelove, don't give up!
ReplyDeleteI know it is hard I'm havign exactly the same troubles as you! but believe me,there is still a huge amount of hope if you just keep trying!! If you stop trying you have lost, as long as you try and fight everything is possible!! *bighug*
I'm so sorry Pasco. I hate this. All of it. But I can't seem to be any other way.
ReplyDeleteI send you strength, strength, and more strength.
sweetheart, don't give up! You can always start again tomorrow.
ReplyDeleteI've been reading your blog avidly for months, though I've never posted a comment before. I love your writing style, and it's clear from the way you write that you have, somewhere inside you, a great inner strength. Good luck with the next few days; I'm sending you hugs
and good thoughts from boston.
"It's no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then." Alice in Alice's Adventures in Wonderland
ReplyDeleteYou'll be in my thoughts
Its never too late to turn it around!! You are so strong, you will overpower the purging in time.
ReplyDeleteI'm struggling with the same thing.
ReplyDeleteDon't be too hard on yourself. Tomorrow's another day. You will win this.
I haven't commented, but I have been so, so worried about you these past few months ('tis celia/kassandra, SkinnyBitch, by the way).
ReplyDeleteYou're a sad character and I feel so very much like you.