Work is crazy
As a student doing prac I would stare at the clock all day, willing the time to pass so I could go home. Now I stare at the clock all day, willing it to slow down so I can get all my work done in time to make it home at a reasonable hour. I'm so busy I can't get bored.
And so busy that today I did not have time to eat. I could have made the time if I needed it. But I did not have time to think about it and it was so easy to just keep starving away. I ate my apple but the salad I bought on the way to work to have for lunch remains at work for my lunch tomorrow.
I must have walked 50 flights of stairs too. Thousands of steps. Constantly flipping between wards and racing to meetings and responding to pages. Rarely standing still, rarer still to be sitting down.
When I got home I had a mountain of cooked veges and salad, with fruit for dessert. It was all still too much and I still purged a little bit, which was stupid. I could have stopped eating much sooner, but I thought "I'm allowed this so I will eat it all" then became uncomfortably full. Uncomfortable physically, and psychologically. That feeling is frightening, even when you know there aren't all that many calories in you.
All in all, a good day for me.
Work is exhausting. It is frustrating. It is incredibly stressful. Tomorrow I'm at work from 7am til 11pm.
But work will make me rich and it will make me thin.
I'm glad work does so much for you! My work seems to make me fat, all while putting very little money in my pocket.
ReplyDelete& I'm sorry you felt the need to purge your veggies, but feeling full is scary - hope you 7-11 shift goes well
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i "overdidit" mentally when I ate a rice crispie treat last night. So I know how you are feeling. But I am sure you lost weight anyway with all the activeness! :)
ReplyDeleteooo same with the purging vegetables un neccessary but when you feel full it happens :(
ReplyDeletemy mum lost alot of weight when she stopped using lifts at work (she works in a hospital also )
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