Sunday, October 3, 2010

mastercleanse


Tonight I drank bleach
because I was too drunk to throw up

I threw up

And now I am so clean
Horrifically lemony fresh

I AM KILLING MYSELF

This is absurd
Awful

To think I was so proud when I woke up this morning.

This is not just an all new low
It is so much more
It is the embodiment of my imminent demise
The intensity of me desperation

I am so fucked
So fucked

I know now I am probably going to die from this

11 comments:

  1. Shitshitshit.
    Remember me? I still love you.
    Remember E? His dad died last night. Its not fun.

    I wish you all the love in the world and remember that one time we talked on the phone? We could talk on the phone. Even though I haven't used blogger for about a year and am just about to go and read all your other posts I have not yet read now. Blah.

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  2. BAD. NO. BAD. THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT IS GOOD.

    Please, please, please don't ever fucking drink bleach again. Please for the love of fucking whatever the hell you believe in. Don't do it again.

    I'll give you my phone number and you can text me, too. Or e-mail me. Or write me letters. Or I'll do vice versa. Whenever you feel like you're losing control, just talk to me. Or Ancora, obv.

    Okay? I care.

    <3MJ

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  3. Your bones aren't made of glass, you can take life's knocks.

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  4. but we dont have to little wonder. we dont have to.
    i love you miss sunshine xx

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  5. Oh love =( Don't drink bleach. That worries us =( We really do care about you!

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  6. Throwing up food is one thing, but drinking bleach is a completely different thing.
    Even ED girls have to draw the line somewhere.
    If you don't draw the line, you let it kill you.
    Draw your line.

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  7. Fuck...don't EVER do that again.

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  8. really REALLY bad idea.
    you only get one life.

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  9. http://dreadfulpretty.blogspot.com/2010/10/final-post.html

    ...maybe give it a read

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  10. We should talk. I'm emailing you right now.

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  11. OMG, My heart is racing I am glad you're still alive. But never ever drink bleach! It's not worth it.Please, please I beg you take care of yourself.

    Tons of hugs & kisses,

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